My son and I were eating breakfast and watching a cartoon where a little mummy boy was sad because he lost his "Mummy." Of course at the end of the cartoon, the little mummy found his Mummy. As soon as they found each other, they hugged. At that point, my two year wrapped his arms around me and said,"my Mummy." My heart ... I could actually feel it getting warm inside my chest. I could feel blood rushing to my heart -- and expanding my heart muscle. I know it sounds a bit dramatic, but it is true. Remember the scene in The Grinch Who Stole Christmas where the Grinch's heart grew when he saw the people of Whoville celebrating Christmas even without their decorations -- well, I am not comparing myself to the Grinch, but I did experience my heart growing inside my chest. I felt his pure love for me.
I glanced at the clock on the wall; it was 7:35 am. And in that moment the thought that ran across my mind was if I were still teaching school, class would have started five minutes ago. Wow, am I glad I am staying at home. This is the reason I stated home. We have a tighter budget because of that choice, but in that moment my choice was validated and ohhh so worth it.